This summer, my goal is to live a life of purpose. I want to do things with intent, passion, and commit to every- and anything I do. No matter what! I want to maximize my summer, and do so fabulously *hairflip*. It wouldn’t be right if I didn’t throw a hairflip in there.
There’s something about me that makes me very uncomfortable whenever I’m idle for an excessive amount of time. Maybe I don’t know how to relax, maybe being busy helps me escape from my thoughts about my future and my career choices, maybe planning events is a therapeutic release of stress, or maybe I genuinely enjoy doing that sort of thing. Maybe this, maybe that.
Judging by my excessive use of the word “maybe,” I’m at a point in my life where my plans after undergrad are unclear. My God told me that I am destined for greatness, so that much is clear. But greatness in what domain? What am I supposed to be doing with my life? Right when my love for medicine takes over, doubt creeps in about my decision and I am unclear if I would enjoy being a doctor. What about my “on the side” skills? Should I go into event planning or administrational work? What would my family [Read: parents] think?
Being indecisive makes me extremely uncomfortable. Extremely.
So. This summer, as I try to figure out my long-term goals, I will live a life of intent. That doesn’t mean I won’t relax. I love getting my nails done and watching my shows on Netflix like the next guy, so If I want to lay out in the sun with my franz, I will purposely do that. If I want to go to the movies or take a long nap, I will do just that. But I want to leave this summer a different, more knowledgeable person. If it’s an “easier” day for a track workout, I will do every drill with precision and follow-through, do full ninety degree squats, and never slow down until I cross the finish line. I’m going to re-visit my love for books and read a new one every couple of weeks! I’m going to go on new adventures, learn new things from fascinating people on TED.com, and make peach-whiskey BBQ chicken—courtesy of Pioneer Woman (I am obsessed with this woman, her family, and the entire FoodNetwork family). I’m going to re-learn Spanish, take a summer Literature class at a local college, and find the perfect combination of fruit for my daily smoothies! I want [Read: need] to learn how to swim. Please refrain from judgment, I know I’m terribly late in the aquatic game.
It’s going to be a great summer.